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い​や​な​の​に

by DEV

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This was my first time working with live musicians.. also FINALLY I get to tune Japanese //wheeze
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Song written, mixed, and tuned by Devin Lawley (Crane)
Art by Ikaraide (www.instagram.com/ikaraide/)
Guitar by Ryjones (www.fiverr.com/ryjones?source=order_page_summary_seller_link)
Lyrics/translation by Juudenki (www.fiverr.com/ryjones?source=order_page_summary_seller_link)
Vocals by V4 Flower (tuned in vocaloid 5)
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Off vocal: devboy.bandcamp.com/track/left-4-dead-instrumental
Check it out on SoundCloud: soundcloud.com/cranefrigdeprod/v-flowerleft-4-dead-vocaloid-original
Check it out on Youtube: (COMING SOON)
My Commissions Page: devinoteiza.wixsite.com/portfolio
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lyrics

いつか死ぬと決められていて
まだ生きてられるのはなんで？
手も足も動かせないまま
流されるように息を吸うの？

もう嫌だ
諦めたい
もう嫌だ
やだ　やだ　やだ　いやなのに

産声上がり悪夢始まる
無理強いでやって来たこの場所
後ろ髪を引かれててくてく歩いてるよ
終わるのかさえ分からない道筋

もう嫌だ
諦めたい
もう嫌だ
やだ　やだ　やだ　いやなのに

あと少しと言われているけど
それを聞くのも何百回目
命を美化されてもあまり共感出来ないよ
拒否権なんてそもそもないから

やだ
もう嫌だ
諦めたい
もう嫌だ
やだ　やだ　やだ　いやなのに

涙隠して平気なフリを
弱いところは見せちゃダメなの？
人の話気にして置いてかれる気がして
負け犬になんてなりたくないでしょ？

もう嫌だ
諦めたい
もう嫌だ
やだ　やだ　やだ　いやなのに

誰に聞かれた覚えもないし
「死にたい」より「消えたい」が近い
疲れてはくたびれて無意味に踊らされて
最後までやりきる意義すらないよ

やだ
もう嫌だ
諦めたい
もう嫌だ
やだ　やだ　やだ　いやなのに

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When it's decided that we will die one day
Why can we still go on living?
Are we going to keep on breathing
While we can't move a finger?

I don't want it
I want to give up
I don't want it
I don't I don't I don't I don't wanna

The nightmare starts with your first cry
This place they forced you to come
I'm walking step by step reluctantly
Unsure if this long path will end one day

I don't want it
I want to give up
I don't want it
I don't I don't I don't I don't wanna

They keep on telling me it's going to get better soon
But I've heard that hundreds of times already
I can't relate at all to this glorification of life
It's not like I have the right to decline to begin with

I don't wanna
I don't want it
I want to give up
I don't want it
I don't I don't I don't I don't wanna

Hiding tears and acting like everything's fine
Can't I even show my weak side?
Caring about what others say, feeling like I'm left behind
Because no one wants to be a loser, right?

I don't want it
I want to give up
I don't want it
I don't I don't I don't I don't wanna

It's not like anyone asked me in the first place
More than "I want to die", it's like "I want to disappear"
Getting tired and worn out, dancing in this meaninglessness
I don't have a reason at all to go until the end

I don't wanna
I don't want it
I want to give up
I don't want it
I don't I don't I don't I don't wanna

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released May 24, 2020

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What's up guys, I'm Devin! I make original songs and covers with vocaloid.

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